I typed the password manually, careful not to hit the wrong keys.

I typed it slow, watching the black dots appear in the field.

I pressed enter.

*Invalid password or username.*

He had changed it.

I clicked the *Forgot Password* link.

The screen refreshed, prompting me to enter my recovery email address.

I typed in my personal Gmail account, the one I had used to set up the domain four years ago.

The screen flashed again: *No administrator account associated with this email address.*

He had removed my email entirely from the system.

I was completely locked out of my own website.

I tried to access the home router to see if I could bypass the block.

I typed the router’s local IP address into the browser bar.

The gateway page loaded, asking for the admin credentials.

I tried the default password printed on the sticker at the bottom of the router.

*Access Denied.*

I tried Julian’s usual combinations, variations of his birthday and his childhood street name.

*Access Denied. Device locked for 15 minutes due to multiple failed login attempts.*